"Have you ever laid on your bed at night and cried because you are not good enough? Counted all your flaws and felt worse about yourself? And just felt too miserable and alone...?"
Tears floated down her dark big eyes, damping her pale cheeks like rain drops pouring on the dry desert sand. Depression invaded her like a chemical with which every reaction was causing explosion in her head, filling it with thick dark smoke of agony.
She felt like she wont be able to survive anymore as her injured bleeding knees were not ready to lift her heavy dead soul. She wished to live in the dark room , forever, whose walls were tinted with the shades of regret ,making it hard for her to breath.There was a sound of the storm in her sob which was wandering in her heart. She started dragging her numb body with her aching feet and pushed the door hard to stand beneath the drizzle .
She saw Dark shadows of night invading the balcony, its railing was frozen due to cold breeze. She yearned for the ways to dust away the aching shards of her bygone days , but as it was the past, it always finds her.
She hated those most catastrophic intervals of night, when dark shadows lingered like wild creatures of woods. Suffering from insomnia, she craved for just few hours of peaceful sleep but these hours had such an immense effect on her nerves that even a smallest thing felt like scratching, cutting and tearing her apart.
She came back to her room, only to stain her pillow again. She noticed the rain drops striking her window glass, they could not not compete the flow of that salty acidic water of her eyes that burnt her skin on its way down to the corners of her lips , where they vanished, just like her contentment . She closed her eyes and shelled herself in the blanket which felt so heavy as if someone had seamed all the mistakes, regrets and guilt of her life in it. The hanging photographs on the wall seemed so blur, just like her happy days.
At that time of the night, she felt like her body had turned into a certain type of magnet, attracting all broken sharp shreds of lingering thoughts and then just before the dawn she felt swear traumatizing pain in her heart like someone has injected a tranquilizer in it, making her numb, fading away her thoughts and hanging her over in arms of sleep.
Just when the sun teared the dark shadows of night with it's heat and light, she fell to sleep , slowly, just like a feather who has wandered whole night in dark woods of a high mountain, reached at the peak and then set free with the blow of wind, moving with the flow of breeze , slowly coming down and down and down.
